Unstable feeling

its 1.47 a.m. now...i still awake...actually i quite tired and sleepy...and if i want to sleep..i already become the pig...why i still awake as if it is so...?

something crossing over my mind now, i dunno how to express it out...i just feel like crying...? err not really though...haihz. i dunno how to put into words...

anyone? pls..!! anyone ...? can help me ? ting said if my heart unstable...put legs on it..let the gravity of centre become lower, so it will more stable...lolz...hmm if only i got the legs to put on...

time is flying...really..must appreciate everything that gone past...i just dunno if i am goin to the correct way...could u put me through the correct path...? could you? could you tell me wat to do and wat not to do? i seriously need ur suggestion..and support...i am kinda confusing now..whether i should just go on or let it go....my mom and my sis suggested if things doesnt go so well.just let it go la.still got many other chances waiting for u in ur future..but the point is i dunno what exactly i want...and what exactly is he thinking...hmmm... i think u should know wat am i talking about by now...right? yeap should be la...

everyone is leaving this week...all back to aus or nz...i just dun like dat kind of feeling, how to say, hmm is really sad and u will start asking urself...why? time is flying huh? jarrel will be leaving tonight, then follow by po and chia ming....even thought we dun really hang out dat much..we dun see each other everyday, but at least i know they are all around me, in malaysia...if i wan to find they all, is just so simple..call them and meet them up...but if they all go back to where they suppose to be for study, it just very hard to see them...is not just very hard..is super duper hard...you dun even have the chance to call them out...and u might not know when can u see them again..?this coming april? dec? or maybe next year..? dunno...is still a "?"..sad case~~

anyway thx guys for coming back and bring the joy-ness, fun-ness, crazy-ness to me...i very happy of it...yea..and im now recalling back the day we at penang...the trip was awesome, this is wat i think la..some of u might not like it, maybe? who noes~~~

hmm i think i should go to bed now..if not someone is gonna kill me....oops!!! toddless~~~i actually feel much more better now...=) so yea..bye