Life difficult

Sometimes is just lazy or can say bored of to bother things that happened again and again around you.

It happened quite a number of times maybe so that no strenght to bother anymore, is that possible? yea i think it is possible...

So why not live happily without thinking anything that will ruined your days or your feelings. someone say that "easy say than done" yea, that is possible, but why so fast jump to the assumptions when u are not even give it a try? you may not know the results until you do so

Sometimes i just love to be lonely, but i cant be lonely...=.=" sick right? i know...!!!..but you know, when you are alone, u will start thinking alot of stuff, can be either positive or negative!!..by that time, you need a awesome blossom friend to cheer you up or maybe talk to you?...that will definitely warm your heart O.O is it so?

For me, i dont like to tell others how i feel or what i think.i like to keep it inside my heart..this is my habit since i'm young, my mom always said that you dont tell others what you want? how you feels? what are you thinking? how people understand what you thinking? how people know what you wants? and so...and you know that people are worried about you? ( my mom)=(

Now, i learned how to defence/protect myself from others, maybe sometimes, for certain incident..not 100% yet..hmm ...one will change when they grown up.this is the stage where people will definitely go through in their life..i think i dun put my words in the bull's eyes, you may get confuse of what i said never mind...

Maybe people dont like the changes of me, and said why i so mean ad one? why i this and that ad one?hey people, i'm human ok can change anytime wan lo...you mean to me then why must i kind to you? you kind to me, then that is impossible i mean to you!! maybe is the pressure given by YOU? YOU are the one who make me changed? errr...no offence yea..don't missunderstand =)

Born->Baby->Kindergarten->Primary School->High School->Form 6/College/Uni->Work->married->Give Birth->Sick->Old->"Forever sleeping" we need to go through every single of these....

Life is wonderful yet difficult. ( Instead of blaming how hard your life is, you want to die and stupid stuff because life to you is difficult, meaningless and aimless why not appreciate what you have? and spend your time with your love one and the one who love you...don't say that there is no one else in the world that don't love you, that are all bullshit...impossible that no one will not love you, atleast your parents love you, or maybe u havent meet the person only..be patient =) and oh do something you wish/hope and don't regret of doin it.once you missed , u will regret forever, seriously!!! if you think you dont really like or something after u make the choice, just take it as an experience and let go of it...O.O

hahaahha..ok enough of grandmother story la...i like to being a grandmother these few days hor..hmmm!!! is just a small remind for me la =)