Friday 16/01/2009 ....

hmm...wat so special about today?...

the day i wan to remember for my entire life? hmm nope not really..

my wedding? No u're kidding me weih,im just 18th years old,yea i know is possible but i dont think so....

my 21st BIG BIRTHDAY? still got 2 more years to go...

someone confess to me? HAHAHA....NOPE =.=

date with someone i love? ermm..i do HOPE so...

hang out with my best buddy? errrmmm i did dat almost everyday not everyday but most of the time i do hang out with my best buddy...so nope..

i graduate? i really hope i graduate ad so dat i can work and earn tons of money....

couple with someone i love? haha yea right...=.=

someone give me present dat i really love...? hmm no no no...

i become a millionair or billionair?haha wow...this is impossible even though how i wish one day it will come,there a ppl will say dat why not, miracle do happen, yea i know..hopefully..

hmm none of the above dat i think i would be happy if it do happen..so wat so special about it..?



Actually nothing special, just in my heart i will never forget this day....! Normally friday i dont have class, but i went to college cuz got replacement class for critical thinking skills...after the class, went to the bursary to pay my fees....this is the main point im talking about...but why? why i wan to talk about this day? talk about my fees? i guess u will think dat oh mg god am i crazy.?wat so intesting about my fees? aint no other things to talk about already ..? too free?..NO NO , its not like dat.....my FEES, i really hope i got tons of money now and i dont need to bag u all..see u all face...im not those rich person..my family aint not wealthy...not those high class person..my fees not easy to collect, RM5100 not a small amount not a big amount though...but my mom really work very hard just to let us has a better education has a better life when we grown up...but few days back, she scolded me very badly...because i told her need to pay the fees ad and the due is on fri..she scold me cuz i failed one subject.. and need to pay another Rm1200 more for dat particular subject...she said..who ask u everyday got out ..dun study hard now failed one subject need to pay extra money u think im rich huh? i know u dun have the heart to study ad..why not u stop study and come out to work? i really dun have extra money to give you ad...u noe ur dad very well...if u cannot study, dont study ad...come out to the society and work....if u work...u wan to come back how late also can.i wont care about u....


MOM....u think i cannot study? u think i wan you to pay dat extra money? u think i dun have heart to study? u think i just wan to play not study so i failed one of my subject?u think i wan to failed? u said u are dissapointed of me ?hmmm.....i really very sad and dissapointed and frustrated when i heard dat....i think we less communicate..? yea i think dats how it began....so now u dont trust me, not at all i guess? you dont know wat i thinking you dont even know wat i want? you dont know when i sad when i mad and when i happy?you said i jealous i envious my sister because u provided her the best education, the best college and even university, u sent her study abroad u gave her everything that she wanted u fullfill her wish and everything..u also said my grandfather only sayang her gave her everything ..bought her a car gave her money,watever she want my grandfather will gave her but we dont have ask me and my youger sister dun jealous of our elder sister..No mummy, i dont jealous i dun even envious about my sister...i know ur situation, u can let us study until now is already the best thing u can gave us...but why, why u think i will jealous because u know u cant give me so dat u think i will jealous about it? No i dont...not at all..seriously...!!i very sad u know dat? i know is all my fault dat makes u think like dat cuz i dun communicate with u, i spent most of my time infront of the com and my friends more than my family..i dun talk often at home...u know why? if u ask me why..i cant give u the accurate answer as well, i scared of u? maybe because when ever u talk ure like scolding , if u scold one person the other two will involve as well...or u are like not listening to me...but i really appreciate i have a sister dat i can throw out all my thoughts and feels even though sometimes we will quarrel abit.but sisters no matter wat sure will quarrel abit one right? so dats normal....

and its not like i wan to failed dat subject, i really put most of my effort to study de subject than others subject, even though not really 100% but i really work hard on it...maybe because i dun really uunderstand the subject very well or i dun have interested in the subject or i dun put 100% of my effort on it so i failed...


NO MATTER what happen i still love u, my family...i seriously do love u all..those love dat come from my bottom of the heart...my friends can never replace u alls....even u said i i spent most of the time with my friends than u all do, talk to my friends more than u all, laugh to them more than u all.. but my family will always the 1st place in my heart....well work is different story...different case...it can never be combine with family friends or something else...


Jie...i really will feel sad if u really leave the house...no one i can share my thoughts my feelings to already...i know u dont like to stay any longer in this house already but u think dat is easy if u stay outside alone? no body care for u, no body cook for u, no body talk to you i mean as in like we three like to play together talk eat shopping and so and so....u wont miss us? i dont want the family to separate...i want my family to stay together no matter wat happen....even though sometimes i also thought of leave the house..its really tired to see wat is happening in the house sometimes....but i wont really want to leave....


Anyhow, i wan to thank u all for sponsored me..when i come out to the society work later after i graduate, i will payback u all i mean i will never forget u alls mercy...

OH well im finally back yea...didnt update my blog since 3 weeks ago ...


O.O but then i dun think its a matter cuz no one is goin to read my blog as for i nv tell them my link....only ting knew that cuz i told her dat day..yea (DAT DAY) i wonder when haha....


Btw i broke my finger nail today...so PAIN...keep bleeding non stop..omg...luckly i didnt faint like how rick did last time in Perhentian its really scary n you dun noe wat to do...well my incident goes like dat..it was my last class which is marketing today..before the lecturer enter the class....we three...ting , yan and i went to washroom for a break... when we walked out from the washroom, yea im the last one..i was talking to them and i didn't notice dat the lock of the door spoilted, i was laughing on wat they toking about.when i was about to shut the door, i didnt knew that my finger was stuck with the lock and it was broke...i realised only when i came out, cuz it was really pain and is bleeding..so i went back to the washroom to wash my wound but then i scared it will be more pain so yan asked me dun wash la she will give me tissue papper...then i asked yan

Me: Jia ern , bang wo na wo de zhi jia chu lai, zai na ge men na bian...ran hou diu diao ta....
then yan and ting was like HUH? lol they stare at the lock and keep laughing there..
me too laughing non stop even thought my hand bleeding...
after dat we went back to class..we three laughing non stop since break time till our marketing class over..and then when class ended ..we went back home...

omgoshh...it was my bad day today....=(

Panic+Stress+Scared+Qi gik+Gan jiong+Bored+Lifeless+Tired+sleepy

Fuiyooohhhh.....hahah u can see the title was so damn long right...

yeap..is my mood of today from morning till now....

enrolled subject at SS2 INC ( CYBER CAFE ) with yan , ting and chia juen...u nv see the incident, is like war more QI GIK and GAN JIONG dan those player in cc..lolz....no more place? time clash? com lag like =.=...really frustrated u noe...cant take the subject u want and planned long time ago...finally i took Advanced English and Critical Thinking which is a core subject for this sem and Accounting and Psychology which is the elective subject and one more LAN subject i havent choose ..cuz no more slot..=.= de other Lan subject , time clash..wth la....monday i need to go college to register ad...haihz..really gik...business and marketing no more slot..those ppl really geng lorh...my com lag awhile only ma..after a turn no more slot..??? @.@...i dun care, next sem i am goin to choose the business and marketing 1st..IF ..IF no more slot again..i really dunno wat to say...no point i study foundation in arts ad..!!!!

hmm anyway...wat my friend said was really true...
i says : other than business and marketing...im not interested....
vince says : but let me tell u something la.
vince says : besides interest.
vince says : the main purpose of foundation is to meet the requirement for what uni you about to go.
vince says : foundations isn't that important. as long as you are able to get in the uni and the course you wanted to take.
vince says : it's consider you're on the right track.
vince says : so don't so worry kay :)

after the enrolled thingy..went back home ..online,chat chat chat, music music music...and pet society haha..is a baby game i call dat....is very bored but yet very fun..hahha

the living room

bathroom

the bed room

RESULTS IS OUT~~~~~~

Jantung berdenyut-denyut

Hati tak dapat bertenang

ting called me while im still sleeping...

she said : "hello, weiru ar qi sheng liao mei you?"
huh? hai mei you...?
hahah,qi sheng liao mei you?
en mei you..
chen ji chu liao wo...wo failed liao computing..
HUH..chen ji chu liao.? omg..ni failed liao....?O.O
ni chu kan la..jia en chuan bu pass...O.O
oh okok bye bye...

i quickly jump off from my bed and then check my result

haihz..i knew it...im goin to failed my computing..but i really dunno why i failed my computing...

can say computing principle i studied the most one..but i failed..wth?!?!?!

means i have to retake again la...aiks...gonna face the book again....shhhhhesssshhhh...

FINE!!!!...this sem very heavy man.....6 subjects....2 core 2 elective 1 LAN and the one i failed..aiks...

wei ru ar wei ru ~~~~ STUDY HARD HARD ar....ehh no STUDY SMART SMART dun STUDY HARD HARD..........dun so lazy ad la....PLEASE...........

im so scared now....

my results will out tomorrow....

have to decide wat subject to enrol and yet if i failed any of the subject i have to retake again which cost RM1200 per subject..@.@

i dun wan to waste my time taking the subject all over again la....

waste time waste money....=.=

Omg..why i dun study hard hard.....aiks.....

See..!! u regret now...whats the point of regreting now..no use ad la...

AND im happy now..=.=...cuz CHIA MING was BACK..........he just gave me a shock weih.....

WELCOME BACk CHIA MING......haha...MISS you loads seriously.....haha..finally get to see you ad.......omg i dunno how to tell u how i feel now...seriously..is very surprise u noe....i very happy now.....omg...ok i better stop here ..im goin crazy...bye